Invincibility

Of course, we’re all going to die one day; it’s a rule of life we cannot defeat.

I’m a girl whose mind clenches an assortment of possible terrors – the fear of failure, hallucinations, losing someone, and the improbability of future and death.

I spend most of my car rides staring out of windows, to think about the probability of death. Something could happen right now, and I wouldn’t be prepared for it. Something could happen to someone I loved right now, and I would regret not driving them myself. Something could happen in a different town, city, country, or the world, and I wouldn’t even know.

It’s scary to even think about how the power lies with Atropos, who has the ability to cut the thread of life least when expected.

Yet, I have a double take on the whole understanding of the span of life and the way we understand it. And as ironic as my thoughts always seem to stir, despite the presence of my listed fears, I spend time to shut my eyes to think about the effect of the death – only to not feel anything. Perhaps because I hold too much unrealistic optimism.

The mistake that I think we often make is that we subconsciously believe that we’re all invincible.

Maybe it’s a fear appraisal technique to ignore the possibility of our greatest fears.

Maybe it’s too unreal and foreign of a concept for the brain to process.

Maybe blocking the thought from our heads to replace it with non-viable rationality is what’s happening.

Basically what I’m trying to say is that it’s so ironic that most of us teenagers view death as something crawling closer with every passing day and that each day is testing the reaper above us – yet we seem to think that our whims, our impulses and our choices surpass the phenomenon.

However, the more I begin to think about it, the less the concept of life begins to feel complicated.

While the thread may seem to cut at some unknown point, it is Lachesis who does measure the rod of life at an earlier point in time. And if you or me is reading this right now, chances are we’re old enough to have the ability to understand the length, importance and depth of life. And I cannot even stress on how important this is to put into our perception and in a constant thought radar.

No, don’t be afraid to live or don’t live in a constant fear of demise.

No, this isn’t to say it’s fair for young people to be trapped in scary situations because fate said so.

It’s to say that time spent is time we’re not getting back. And most likely, when we’re lost into our game of personal chess in college, we’re going to tend to phase several new priorities – relationships, peer pressure, wild instincts and a spirit of adventure. Live your life, make the informed choices that you must, but remind yourself of what may happen, what could happen and that time’s running out. Remind yourself to go chase those dreams and appreciate what you have, and fix whatever might be wrong, because you never know when your world will shake. Remind yourself that it’s important to return back to who you intrinsically are, to your roots and to what stands important for you.

Because with every passing second, you’re testing the vulnerability and the improbability of the future.

Live life the way you want, sometimes planned, sometimes by whim. But whenever you stray away or forget during the race of time, make sure you remember that we’re not – invincible.

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